Meant to Be

I’m convinced that with everything I’ve gone through the last couple of years, with my dad passing away from brain cancer, to losing my job, jumping from temp job to temp job, buying my first house, getting married, continued job searching, and going through depression, this website was never going to just be a photography portfolio. I’ve been wanting to make use of this website for more than just photography, especially since I haven’t had any photo ops since my friend’s graduation a few years ago.

I had an idea to create a business out of organizing peoples’ homes, after doing multiple organization assignments through the TaskRabbit/Tasker app. But one assignment got my account suspended back in early December last year… and I took on one last assignment off the books shortly after that. But since then, I have not done any organization. I became too preoccupied with the thought that bad things kept happening to me that I thought I was never going to be able to keep a job. Actual job searching became a tedious and discouraging chore. I went through a couple of job search scams.

Then the idea I had of creating an organization business came back to me. I started playing around with logos on Canva, told a friend about my idea as well as my mom. She liked the idea and added on that the business could include a cleaning service, which she would be happy to do. I haven’t put any of these ideas in to the works… yet. Who knows if it’ll ever become a thing? But I like the whole process of when I came up with it. I don’t know… we’ll see.

For now, I’m still in the phase of job searching. It has become a part-time job, a job that I don’t get paid to do… and it sucks. With how much effort I’ve put into applying for all these jobs, going through the thought process of “I’m gonna have to start from square one” or “I’m gonna have to start over/from the beginning again“, I’m hoping something changes soon. This is mentally tiring for me.